Ok it’s not even Friday yet but I’m going to have a Flashback post nonetheless. (This is what boredom does.)
That there on the left is me around six or seven years ago, during my active Taekwondo days. Back then my weight fell in the 52- to 54-kg range. Looking back, I see how, for lack of a better word, “normal” I actually was back then (compared to how heavy I’ve allowed myself to get)… but during that time all I could see of myself was the extra roll of fat around my middle, the jiggly part of my upper arms, the cellulite surrounding my thighs, my thick ankles. I saw myself as fat, and I didn’t like myself very much for it. At the back of my mind I was always comparing myself to my friend in the picture (she weighed around 49 kgs), who I saw as way, waaay skinnier than I was and as such, should be my standard of how I should be.
Looking at this picture now, I see that my friend and I weren’t really that far apart in terms of body size… and that, I shouldn’t have been comparing myself with her in the first place. I realize now that I should have appreciated and loved myself just the way I was back then, and just strove for self-improvement instead of quietly criticizing the way I looked.
But that is all in the past now. I’m glad I’ve found the Tumblr community of positive Fitblrs who have opened my eyes and introduced me to a new way of thinking. I’m currently almost 10 kgs heavier than what I used to weigh in this picture, but I’ve also come a long way from my starting weight when I began this journey. And besides, I’ve learned to let go of my attachment to weight. What’s important is what my body can do and how I feel inside.
So thanks to everyone on here that continue to inspire and send out positive messages to all who desire to achieve healthier versions of themselves. You all are pretty awesome. ^_^
